LOVE IS ALL I HAVE

Chapter 14

"Where is my baby?" Copter was taking 2 days to open his eyes when he realized his stomach had flattened and was anxiously looking for his baby. When he saw Kimmon was coming, he asked that question right away.

"Hey, hey, calm down. You were just waking up from a coma and your condition wasn't that good, honestly. Your baby is fine, he was still in an incubator, since you deliver him in a premature state. The nurses were taking care of him alright, so you need to focus on your health first." Kimmon was coming closer right away, preventing Copter who was trying to get up, maybe trying to go to his son.

"Can I at least see him?" Copter was begging, he couldn't really sit still until he could see with his own eyes how his baby is. "Let me call Elena first to check on you, okay? If the doctors give their permission, I'll bring you to him." Kimmon was calling Elena right away telling her Copter was already waking up.

A few minutes later, Elena was coming with another doctor and they both were starting to checking up every machines that attach to Copter, while Kimmon and Copter would watch how effective they worked on it, waiting for any response from them.

After a few minutes checking and discussing, Elena then turning to Copter and Kimmon with a big smile. She then lunged to Copter hugging him, much to Copter and Kimmon's surprise. "Copter, thank you for being okay. Thank you for waking up. You have no idea how worried I am."

Elena then break the hug with a still dumbfounded Copter and a giggling Kimmon, and turn to the serious face of a doctor once again, making Kimmon laugh out loud now. "You can be transferred to normal ward, which you will occupy your previous room, and Kimmon can bring you to the infant's room. But, sorry Cop, you cannot get into the room yet, but to just watch him through the glass window. Once he was strong enough, we will bring him to you, okay mai?"

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Copter's tears fall down right away with a relieved sigh that his baby was okay and at the same time with longing feelings of holding his baby, when he could watch his little baby in the incubator, getting supported from the machine. He wanted to hold him, hugs him and kissed him, but he know, his baby was a strong baby. "Papa miss you baby". But he will be okay, as long as his baby was okay. "We will both be okay, baby. We will."

They were there watching the baby who would move around some time in his sleep that making Copter wished he could let the baby hold onto his fingers for support. Maybe not now, but he will be able to do that later on. After a while, Kimmon pulling Copter and pushed the wheelchair right back, telling him he needs rest. Reluctantly and with heavy heart, Copter who was just sitting on the wheelchair let Kimmon pushed him back to his wardroom.

Once Copter was settled on the bed, he was sitting leaning on the pillow which Kimmon help putting it there. "Kim, I'm sorry for doing that, and pulling you into my problem. They must hate you already because of me. I'm sorry for being so selfish and doing this to you."

Copter was sobbing, since he couldn't keep his tears from falling down. He was sad, and tired, and hurt, now that he coukd think about what had happened between him and Tee, and unfortunately, Kimmon too, but the guilty feelings he had for Kimmon really eating him up, that he couldn't wait for long to apologize, even though he could change nothing by being guilty or apologized to the guy.

"I'm your friend. At least Tee had Itthipat and Tae by his side. He had his whole family with him. But you? So, it just fair for me to be on your side. Besides, I have nothing to lose except for my friends, which in time, I think we will be okay. So, you don't have to worry so much, Cop. But since you have delivered the baby, and Elena only needs a few weeks more for her research, we need to think about you and your baby, Cop. Do you have any plan?"

Copter was looking down on his hands which was clutching on each other, trying to hide his nervous. It was always Tee who had planned for them before, and that he would always ask him not to worry or thinking too much about it. With everything going on, that must be slipped from his mind. And now, he only had himself for his baby. Nobody to depends on anymore. It wasn't even new to him being an orphan and all, but this time he thought he would have someone to depends on and sharing a life with. Guess, now, it's all gone.

He then looking up to Kimmon with a small smile. "I guess, I need to start thinking about it right now, am I?" Kimmon then holding his shivering hands and smile. "Take it slow. You are still weak. Too much thinking won't be good to you. You need a lot of rest, okay. It's late already. You need to sleep. I'll be here. So, don't worry."

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A week been in an incubator, the baby was finally be able to breathe normally on his own and that the other test would be taking place once the baby was healthy enough. So now, Elena was pushing the baby cart to the VIP wardroom where Copter was with a big smile.

It was wrong for Elena to be attached to his research subject like she had one with Copter. She couldn't understand herself why she cared so much for Copter and how he hates Tee so much for having so little trust in Copter. Granted, Copter made him believe he was kissing Kimmon the other day, but other than that, had Copter did anything that could raise any suspicion? It took more than the kiss to have a doubt. Every small things, and to be honest, Copter was never a good liar to begin with. He knew that better than anyone else.

If only he could stay and asked more, or maybe come back looking for Copter after his anger had subsided. But he decided to thrown Copter away just like that. Was his love that weak? Or was it too strong that it was too fragile? Love was really a complicated thing, something she never wished to be a part of. But could she get away from it once trapped? She sighs to that.

Standing in front of the door of Copter's wardroom, she took in deep breath. She wanted to push aside all the negative thought but to present the baby with all the positive feelings, so that Copter would be happy and forgot all the bad things that had happened to him.

"Daddy.....I'm here...." With a playing tone, Elena enter the room making Copter smile wider, looking at her and the cart in front of her. She was park the cart beside the bed, before taking the baby and put him in Copter's arms.

Copter was supported his baby close to his chest and was looking, watching his baby closely before kissing him on the forehead. His skin color started to change to a white skin just like him and he could see Tee's eyes in his, and when the baby was moving his mouth, he could see the small dimple on both of his cheeks.

"He is so cute." He heard Kimmon said and only then he realize how close Kimmon is, watching the baby in his arm. "Yes, he indeed is." Copter then using his fingers letting the baby hold on it, which he was dying to do the moment he could see his baby. When all he could do was seeing his baby from outside the glass window, the longing feelings he had got much to the point he couldn't handle it anymore.

He felt really happy he could hold his baby right now, and he could kissed him as much as he wished. No one can stop him from doing so.

"Dr. Elena, what about his milk?" hearing Copter's question, Elena was giving him straight lips smile. "Your body couldn't produce milk like a normal woman, so we could only give him formula. But don't worry, we choose the best formula for the infant, even though it could never be the same as breast milk, it's good enough."

"What is his name, Cop?" Kimmon then would ask.

"Kitteechai Pnuwat. Our Kittee."

End of Chapter 14